i was so unsure about writing this blog post in the fear of over sharing.But at the same time I feel like if just one person can relate then it would make me feel loads better.

I'm not sure about you but all i see on my feed at the moment is people popping out babies, or announcing they're  pregnant. And while this makes me so happy for them it crushes my heart a little bit at the same time. I get asked alot about "the second baby " and i always give a half hearted answer. You know the ones where your just like " yeah its kinda an idea, maybe in the future" blah blah blah but inside im screaming i would of popped out another 2 by now if I could!

A few weeks ago i was diagnosed with PCOS ( Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) at the age of 23. I kinda knew for the last 18 months something was up because i was only having periods every 3 months, i was like a hairy little ape and no matter how hard i tried, loosing weight was becoming impossible. Now having PCOS doesn't make you completely infertile but it makes the whole process about 100 times worse. 1 in 10 women have PCOS and although there's no real reason as to why some of us get it, its mainly due to genetics and lifestyle. On top of that there's no real cure either, you just have to manage it and hope that the symptoms get better. Exercising and eating healthy all help along with some vitamins and supplements will all help. At the moment i am taking a supplement called Inofolic which will help with my insulin levels and hormone levels. I also take Vitamin E,D and omega fish oil. All of which have been scientifically proven to help with the symptoms of PCOS.

If you've followed me on instagram for a while your'll know that i gave slimming world a go last summer and it was kinda working, then i started working nights and the whole thing went tits up. So now i have to try again, but this time i'm doing it my way. Loosing weight isn't just about my own vain reasons now, its so i can grow my family and be as healthy as possible.




So im making a public pledge from tomorrow, (of course not today i had chocolate at 3am this morning) I am not starting, but getting back into my gym routine and my love of fruit and veg. I'm joining the gym tomorrow and i will get there as often as i can. I will start my day with grapefruits and smoothies and live in hope that i can ignore all the chocolate at work.

                                                   
Like I said, the whole reason of this post it to speak about it, maybe there's someone else out there struggling with the same issue at a young age like me. My advice would be find a doctor that will take you seriously. I got laughed at by 3 doctors because i'm young and already have a child. I'm a 23 year old adult and i know what i want. Ask to be referred and ask for all the tests you can.







So look out for meal post,work outs  and medication and vitamins as i start my journey to a new healthy me so i can have a proper answer for that "second baby " question. And if anyone has any questions about the medication or supplements i take leave a comment below.