Loving yourself isn't as easy as just loving yourself
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There comes a point in your life where you just feel content. With yourself,with your career, with your family and home. Your just content. But what if no matter how hard you try you just end up not feeling that way.
Don't get me wrong I know I'm only 22 I know I'm not going through any sort of mid life crisis but I am feeling somewhat lost.
I've been reading a lot recently about self love and body confidence because they are two things I as a person can't seem to get my head around. What have I got to love myself for and what is there to be confident about. I'm 22 with cellulite,stretch marks, saggy boobs and a massive floppy belly... The list goes on. And yes I know I chose to have a baby and I have to deal with the body I have now and I have to be happy that my body could create a child blah blah blah but why should that make me happy.
Why should I feel empowered because I've earned my stripes? I mean having a child is what we were put on the earth to do right , to create life but have I earned them. I'm doing what millions of other women's have done.
Why am I being made to feel like I should love myself no matter what. And if i don't love myself then how am I meant to love anyone or how are they meant to love me because I'm pretty sure I love my son and I bloody well hope my boyfriend loves me after all this time. I mean he'd have to a little bit just to put up with me.
And how are you mean to be confident without looking big headed or feeling like a prat. Yeah it's easy to say you shouldn't care that others think of you but I'm pretty sure we as humans are wired to care. Even birds try to impress other birds by making their feathers look prettier.
Where are we meant to get this confidence from because if someone could stop telling me to just love myself and actually give me a place to go get this said confidence that would be great. Do you know how much id love to wear some sexy underwear for my boyfriend or sing in front of him or not feel so overwhelmingly hot when people I don't really know try to talk to me, or even feel decent in an outfit. I know what people are gonna say... Work out eat healthy Your'll feel better. Well I've been eating "healthy" now for the best part of nearly 4 years since I got pregnant in fact and I've been exercising at the gym since Mason was about a year old. So it's not like I don't try I do and I still don't feel any less hideous or any more confident.
So where now?
How many more articles and blog posts do I have to read to make myself feel better? Am I craving for someone to love me like they do in the movies ? I really don't know but all I know is that trying to work out how to love yourself isn't as easy as just "loving yourself" and I bet i'm not the only person that feels this way! So if I'm not and your struggling to let's talk it out. Let's find a way to find this self love stuff and bottle it up to give to more people that have absolutely no idea where to get it from!
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